The Gospel Reading for this Sunday tells us about the first two appearances of Jesus to his Apostles after his Resurrection. Thomas, who was not there the first time Jesus appeared, and is often labelled a sceptic because he is unwilling to believe the fantastic news that Jesus’ body had not been stolen but he had, in fact, risen from the dead just three days after his gruesome crucifixion, just as Jesus himself had prophesied. From this story, we might believe that Thomas’s faith is anchored in sight alone and that unless he sees and touches the wounds left by the nails on Jesus’ hands, he will not believe.
Because of this story, we often label him ‘doubting Thomas.’
But I disagree.
I believe that Thomas is honest, Thomas is courageous, and Thomas is bold enough to ask questions others are two afraid to ask. Earlier in John’s gospel, it is Thomas who had the courage to say what everyone else was thinking but didn’t dare say. The courage to ask the awkward questions that drew from Jesus some of the most beautiful and profoundly comforting of all his sayings. It was Thomas who said to jesus, “We don’t know where you’re going; how can we know the way”? , and because he had the courage to ask the question, we were given that beautiful saying
“I am the way the Truth and the Life”
But where was Thomas when Jesus first appear to the disciples? Was he out plotting a safe exit from Jerusalem for the others? Was he discreetly purchasing food and other provisions that they might need ? We don’t know; all we can surmise is that Jesus’ disciples were hiding in fear and that Thomas was not with them. Considering the little we know about Thomas, this is not altogether surprising. Thomas seems to be different from the others, seems to have different ways of processing information, and seems unashamed to express them openly.
As a curate, I am still a vicar in training, and part of my training is to spend time in varied placements. So far, I have spent a week at Avonmouth Social Justice Hub and a term at the Springboard Opportunity Group. Springboard, provides a safe and secure place where children with disabilities are able to learn and flourish. Where different isn’t different and additional needs are not an additional burden. When you parent a child who has additional needs your hopes are somewhat different than those of parents of children with no additional needs or disabilities Sadly, the word Doubt is often the word used by professionals to describe your child’s future. ‘ I doubt they will walk, I doubt they will live past infancy, I doubt they will ever say ‘ mummy or daddy’ or even make eye contact with you. I doubt they will ever live independently.
Springboard do not doubt, and they literally give the voiceless a voice. They listen and value the children in their care. Just one example many of the children are non-verbal, but each is given the opportunity to choose where to sit what story they might like. The staff look for eye movements and gestures that indicate choice. They believe in love and diversity and as a family, when we fostered our beautiful little boy with additional needs, they believed in his future. So, one small reason for going to Springboard was to say thank you for believing in us, for knowing what we needed and for walking with us when we doubted our ability to parent this very special little boy.
Jesus knew what Thomas needed, to believe and Thomas knew what he needed too.
Thomas said, “Unless I see the nail holes in his hands, put my finger in the nail holes, and stick my hand in his side, I won’t believe it.”
It took 8 days before Thomas had his moment of believing, and it was only then that Thomas would proclaim ‘
My Lord and my God!’
I find Thomas’ story inspirational because of his courage and clarity in valuing and expressing his own experience and needs. Thomas needed to have his own personal experience of Jesus and not live his faith through other people’s experiences of Jesus.
Jesus also knew that Thomas needed to experience his resurrection personally in a way that Thomas would be able to believe . Jesus has uniquely personal relationships with everyone he encounters, then and now. Thomas tells us its ok to be different, to have different needs, and different ways of believing and understanding. We are all beautifully and wonderfully made. Many of us have similar needs, common hopes, and shared fears, yet we all experience God differently. George MacDonald, a Scottish poet and minister, and a mentor to C. S. Lewis writes. ‘We are not the same in our experience of God. Each and every person has an indelible and a unique relationship to God. Each person has been created and fashioned by God, like no one else. Each one of us can know and worship God as no one else can’
Springboard has been a part of my life since 2012; I have had the privilege of volunteering in the playroom and being a parent and supporter of this fantastic charity. A charity which really does springboard families from doubt into hope. I have listened to parents talk about their lives and how having a disabled child is like packing a suitcase for a holiday in the sun and arriving in a war-torn city fearful for every moment of every day. As I have listened to stories of adoption, heartbreak, and pain. Every story I have ever heard has been utterly unique and real.
In the story of Thomas, we find a kind of “double faithfulness”: Thomas is faithful to his own integrity and his own experience of Jesus. Clearly, his experience overlapped with that of the other disciples, but not identically. We also see in Jesus a kind of faithfulness to how we have all been created uniquely, with our own unique ways of learning and interrelating the world around us. Jesus validated Thomas’ unique experience of him, and so he does ours. So he does yours. Each and every one of us can know and worship God as no one else can. And for each one of us, God has a different response. George MacDonald said that in every person there is a kind of longing, an “inner chamber” which only God can enter.
The story of God and the story of us are interwoven with the words written in this book. It’s a living document, and I invite you to hold the book in front of you and imagine who this version of the Bible might be best suited to—maybe a teenager, a theological student, a new Christian, a child with additional needs, or maybe it’s a Bible that sits on a bookshelf in a holiday cottage waiting for the right person and the right time to reveal its story.
I invite you to hold the Bible in front of you during a moment’s silence and pray that the words held within its pages will be revealed to those who have not yet seen or heard them before. They will be revealed to those who question and those who need to live a life removed from doubt so they can experience hope in all its fullness.
Let us pray.
Amen.
John 20 :29 Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed;